( Anthrocon Stuff )

Current Mood: chipper

Heres what I've bought and stuff:
What I Bought:

Via Mail:

What I owe:
Christmas Sketches
     + Eric's
Vore Xchange
ALOT OF STUFF !! @___@

( Character Info I'm saving here till I know where to put it lol )

Current Mood: Sreepy

My fellow barn staff had a fun little Italian Luau today. It was ok at first. Everyone was eating and watching Finding Nemo but then everyone started chit chatting. I felt so out of place. I tried to be social when we had a pinata. I jumped up and raised my hand and asked if I could be first and no one cared. Two people went in front of me and then broke it so I didn't even get to go. Then I went inside when I was trying to have fun talking and hanging out with them but no one listened to me. I left my cup on the ground so grass got in it. So I exclaimed comically, "Ahh! I have grass in my cup! Hahaha" and I turned, smiling and laughing slightly and half of them didn't even look at me and the ones that were looking kinda gave me a weird look and were quiet. So I drooped my ears and went inside. Then I proceeded to watch tv for like an hour and a half and no one talked to me. Even my bosses dog didn't want to snuggle with me. He kept stepping on me so I shoved him off. When the tv show was over I went to my room. Now I feel so lost and confused. Why did no one want to talk to me or at least show pity and try and include me in a conversation about something dumb or just entertaining to listen to?
I then just looked up stuff about AD/HD people have this problem. Maybe this is stemmed from my small social interaction when in middle school and high school. It's not anything new, I've always felt out of place when talking to anyone.

I went to a doctor a few years ago and he put me on meds. It made it worse or my stomach didn't like the meds. I just can't win can I? :C

Well today is the last day of Anthrocooooon 2009: OMG ALIENS! and PCD is already in full gear. The highlights of the con was of course watching Uncle Kage and 2 with the crazy silly shenanigans they always do every year. Being a SuperSponsor is AMAZING. I loved sitting in the front. Maybe one day I could be in the first row among the distinguished furs of the fandom. It would be so cool. I bought 2 DVDs from 2 earlier today and while he was signing them when I asked he looked at me briefly. I couldn't recognize the look he gave me. Was it familiarity? Maybe he remembered me from last year? He didn't say anything to explain the look so I shrugged it off. I'll have to be more faithful and listen to his shows more. I kinda fell behind. I also need to catch up! So much streaming audio that I need to listen to it's ridiculous.

Watching all the inspired speakers at the conventions makes me want to do something awesome. Maybe I'll write a comic book of sorts? Not sure if it would be Mature rated or not. I'm still a little shy about delving into that. I'm not much of a singer or performer, at least not yet. Maybe one day I'll brave the stage and tell stories about my young stupidity like Kage. I'd love to go to conventions all over the place and fraternize with all the distinguished furs of the fandom. When I get a good idea for a comic I'll try and get it published.

I'll write a better con report when I get back to CAAAMP >:[
Then I'll have time to think about all that happened and reflect better.

I want to make some serious badges now. They are so much fun! Look out for free offers in the future!

Also, I might be a dealer next year! If I'm brave enough and get around to MAKING things to sell there haha. Maybe go into the tail business. Some of the tails here makes me sad. Either they are shabby or like have no structure to them. There was definitely a tail that looked like it should have been a skunk tail but had no stuffing in it! Better get started! So many tails to make! I'll have to whip out all my scrap fabric that I don't use and make some fun and CHEAAAP stuff to actually get rid of the fur in question that is cluttering my mother's basement X3

Well I'm off to see if the hotel has DVD players. I want to watch my 2 and Kage DVDs >:/

Current Mood: PCD

Made it to AC! SO AMAZING!!! Def need to be selling sweet tails next year cause alot of the tails people are wearing make me saaaad! I need to step in and bring in the fabuuulousness.

Might do Artist Alley on Saterday for a few hours before the SuperSponsor Luncheon and the Fursuit Parade! Now to see if that flagpole is good with being flagpoley. Hopefully it doesn't fall apart! It was 9$

Well off to hang in the ZOOOOOOOOO with my mate and draw some badges or something. Chat it up with the furred ones and get tail scritches, maybe?

In a few hours my mate and I will be taking the long trip that is the furry Mecca to Anthrocon again! :D
Can't wait!!!
*bounces around room!*
Going without my Mom this year! It's exciting and scary at the same time! I hope I don't have hotel problems @___@

Anthrocon!!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!

Leaving for Pitty in the morning!!! AHHHH!!!
*bounces around room*

Anthrocon in 5 days!!!!
AHHH
*bounces in chair*

Words can't describe the amazing feelings I have right now. I'm sitting out on the balcony of my "dorm building" for my summer camp job that I've been going to for the past 6 years of my life and no one else is here. All the early arriving riding staff and counselors went out to go to a hookah bar or some other crazy college age girl place to giggle over boys and what other crazy shenanigans real girls do. I hope all the new staff don't attempt to rub my fur the wrong way on purpose because I'm so standoffish. I already don't like 2 of the new riding staff because they are so full of themselves when in front of me just because they own horses and ride all the time at a higher level than me. Makes them think they can carry an air of being better than me.

Back to my sereneness. I'm going to be sad tomorrow when I have to hand in this iBook that I borrowed from the Camp Director cause then I can't talk to my mate and listen to the calmness of Birmingham at the same time. Before coming up on the balcony, I was sitting on the kitchen floor of my Boss Boss Emily's house after eating dinner for like an hour. Mama Z the Camp Director was cleaning dishes quietly with the dogs so I decided to join in on the floor party the dogs were throwing. Confused Mama Z a bit cause she never saw me so quiet before. The past 2 years I had my spontaneous bouts of energy and would be bouncing off the walls. This past few months I've become a lot more calmer and settled down. I think living here would be good for me. Not as stressful since I could be by myself per-se since this Grier is in a borough. Its not even a town. It's amazing.

On a side note, I saw a pair of Orioles today! I saw one yesterday as well. I think they're a nested pair and the one I saw yesterday was probably one of the two I saw today. I hope I can see them more as the summer progresses. Maybe I can put oranges out for them somewhere by the barn or on the patio over in my building. That would be fun.

Current Mood: calm

My computer is apparently at the repair unit. Pfft, who knows when it'll be returned. Gotta tell my Mom what the plan is since she'll be teh one who has to drive it up to me if it takes FOREVER and I'm at camp @__@ I go to Grier again next Wednesday. I have to go early because of Anthrocon. My boss didn't feel like calculating my paycheck with the days taken out or something. Whatev's lol. I hope my kitsune friend Samsam can still come after her car kinda not working and all...

Gotta ask my sister if she'll take me to the library tomorrow or Friday so I can try and talk to her since this craptop I'm using can't function AIM Express or anything thats fancy. Only thing that I got to work was Furtopia Chat lol and NONE of my close friends go on there. Meebo doesn't load correctly either. So I'm a bit stuck on this old ancient thing that can't function AIM Express anymore. It used to too! That's whats so annoying about it.

Gosh, when did I become such an internet addict. It's a bit rediculous! When I get my fast comp back I'm going to go through my LJ and kull my friendslist a bit and finish going through my FA userlist to kull that as well. FA and LJ are a biiig time sucker. Gotta wean myself so I don't become a steriotyped furry that never leaves my room.

Is it sad that I don't want a real job in life so I can just do as I please? Though that plan is a WIP as to figuring out where I get my spending money. I don't really want to be a fursuit mass maker like Latin Vixen or anything. My art isn't at the Blotch level yet either and won't be unless I stoop to draw porn or something. I don't really want to go down that road. I could make plushies and tails and things or something... could "conhop" selling them to the furry mass. Though that would require me making things haha. I would sell art, but thats a big hullabaloo with cons if I don't finish on time. I don't like working under restraints. How does one be a starving artist in such economic turmoil? Messes with my mindplans.

Whatever, I'm still in school. I'll figure out lifeplans later haha. Can always work at Grier between cons or work for Disney as a backfall. I'm good with words, I can get a decient job if I tried I think. We'll see how it goes.

I have to undo boxes from Disney, college, and last year's camp extraviganza so I can pack for THIS years camp extraviganza. Oi. I have sooo much stuff! I'm such a packrat. I need to let go some of it. Or do what my Mom says and just stuff it in boxes in the storage unit she has so I can deal with it later in life when I get my own place blah blah. I don't want to live somewhere else! I want to live in my childhood home! Is that so much to ask? I don't want them to sell the place :C I don't know how to function in anything smaller than my semi-grand house! I need stairs and excessive rooms to walk through as I go about my merry life.

Mom says I have talent in making tails apparently. So maybe this furry scene thing could be good for me if I just get off my own tail and hop to it! We'll see how this plays out. If I don't make anything for Anthrocon this year, I'll make plans to make things for next year to test the waters. Hopefully the economy doesn't get to the furry world of Anthrocon. I need people to buy things from me haha.

Hopefully my computer gets fixed soon :C

Got in a fender bender 5 mins from my house on the way back from Disney. Ooops. It's in my genes. It would only be me to be so close to home to rear end someone. I don't get why my friend's car doesnt work. We barely made a dent on the other person's car. Note to self, never buy a Kia. They cave in like they are made of tin.

This cool pocket watch I want went to 40$ on ebay. PFFT f that. But ugg it was so cool. Mom said I should try and find it somewhere else and NOT on ebay. There isn't any manufacturers of like early 1900's naval watches! Thats why they're vintage! lol

Asked my sculpture teacher if he knows anything about watches and things to see if I could learn some stuff about them. It's worth a shot! I'd totally make my own custom watch witha  bunch of bells and whistles if I knew how. It will have the ability to gloooow too if I can figure out how.

Comps busted somehow from the fender bender so... ttyl whenever its done. Cost me 100$ to back up everything since it wouldnt turn on blah blah >:C

No parks
No nothing

I wanted to go to a park for one last hurrah but didn't knowing I'd just be sad. That and it rained. Now trying to pack up all my junk and burn cds for the long grueling task of getting back to Maryland.

Bought myself a 50$ lobster at Fulton's Crab House. It was amazing. Well worth it. Sad I couldn't share it with anyone.
Lets see if I can pack my stuff without having to acquire more boxes @__@

Also, I want to buy fancy old Victorian stuff but I can't justify where I would wear such stuff. I'd only start out with maybe a prosh hat since I'm such a hat collector. Also looking into watchmaking and pocket watches. If watches arent that hard to make or modify, I could see the fun in modifying them.

Tomorrow is my final day at Disney. I want to go to Animal Kingdom but my shift ends at 5:30. Animal Kingdom closes at 5 so... no Animal Kingdom for me until I meet my lady fair Disney again. Might go to Magic Kingdom for one last hurrah but for some reason I feel so glum if I went to a park and rode rides. Maybe I'll go to Epcot one last time. I feel so nostalgic. I'm going really miss Disney. It helped me see my life in a whole new light. I can tell that Disney was just a big party and a joke to alot of the College cast members at my workplace, but to me it was a life enhancing experience.

I know that it would have been completely different if I had to work at any other location other than The World of Disney. Disney life outside of The WOD is so different. Its like a family environment. Reminds me of BATC. I'm really going to miss alot of my coworkers. Expecially the older ones. Why do I always feel so repectful and look up to the older generation, sometimes in envy with their life experiences. I hope that when I'm older that someone will look up to me like I look up to these fine ladys and gentlmen that I've met. The one I'm going to miss the most is a man called Jerry. He's such a jokester for his age. He likes to kid around like he's my age. So cute and funny. I told him that it was my last week on Monday and he said he was really going to miss me. It look alot for me to shrug off his hug like it wasn't going to get to me. I really wanted to hug him back fiercely. He was like a father figure. I don't know why I look up to father figures when I ahve such a fantastic Dad in my real family.I love my Dad to pieces, that I do, but maybe I'm just greedy and want more or maybe it's because I miss him? Ugg, I'm so daft in teh head sometimes, haha.

Now that I'm older I can see why Dr. Anderson says he sees my Dad in me more than my Mom, a bit opposite of my sister. I used to be pretty boisterous but I've been calming down a bit. Thinking more and being by myself. It's kind of nice to just take time away and keep to yourself. That's why I like Epcot and Animal Kingdom. Not so loud and busyy compaired to Magic Kingdom. I remember going to the Saterday Market with my Dad, just me and him. We barely talked in the car, not in awkwardness or anything. We are just so alike. We say things when they are needed to be said. People of few words most of the time. I have moments when I'm a chatter box, expecially if its about myself or something I have a passion for, but when with my Dad we're both pretty quiet. It's my sister who invokes the converstaions if she's with us. So like my Mom. Anyways, back to teh market! I remember that we wouldn't say much, he'd tell me to get him stuff and I'd go off, looking at everything and breathing in deeply. Such a wonderful world is the world of smells at the market. When I'd return with things, I'd linger close to him, sometimes just barely nuzzling into his sholder as he stood at a stall to chat with a merchant. I just like being close to people. No need to talk, just be close and quiet enjoying the moment.

I can't wait to get home, even though I'm really sad that I ahve to leave Disney. I bought this super faboo picture frame that the WOD I swear JSUT got in the past week. I never saw it in my store till now! The moment I layed eyes on it today when I was working the room it's in, I knew isntantly that it would fit perfectly in at BATC. I don't have any serious Disney pictures taht fit the frame that well, but I took my graduation one that I got taken when I got my "Ducktorate" and will be putting it in it. I hope it doesn't look too goofy. I would have gotten 3 frames, but I had trouble finding just ONE picture that would work! So the Titanious Trio get to share it. I'm going to ask Mom for some wrapping paer when I get home. I want to go to the Spring Concert and give it to them. I'm going to be so embarrased as hell. They're all going to twitter about me for years that someone from their school worked for Disney. I hope they don't ask me too many questions.

Even though I despise the Depp ver. of Sweeney Todd, I don't have an effect Hearn icon for this emotion.

I thought I finally blew off the steam from the drama over the weekend with being left at Disney. I swear my friend is doing this just to argue with me. She was supposed to take me to teh post office after she got back from work. I texted her after an hour of not hearing from her. She didn't reply so I texted her again when the next bus taht could take me to teh post office would come in 15 and said I was taking the fuckin bus cause she was doing god knows what she does with her free time. 30 mins into the post office run bus ride, she FINALLY replys and said she was playing a new video game she got over the weekend and got distracted. Fuck that excuse. How can you put a bloody video game over taking someone to the post office. She knows that if I can't mail it home, its coming in her still probably dirty car.

But wait it gets better. Somehwere she thinks that since it's her car she doesn't need give a shit about what I feel about all this and said that I just have to deal with it and mail all the stuff I aquired cause only the stuff I came with first is going in the car back.  She's not even mailing stuff that she aquired! This is total bullshit on her part. Where does she get the cause to boss me around. She know's I have a pack mentality brain and that I am the pack leader but yet she still growls at me like I would back down to her. I know my hubris will be my downfall one day but it's not today!

It's not that I don't want to still be her friend. I can forgive her if she at least tries to not argue with me on the way home on a very awkward 15 hour car drive back to Maryland.

Anyone ever get a bad awkward feeling when they're in the heat of anger that one day it might get them in trouble some day? I don't know where I get this bad sharp temper from. Everyone in my family are so hop skippity. I don't think I've seen any of my family have a gruff argument to the extent of my anger. I'm hoping it doesn't get worse I get older. I don't want to do something I'll regret. Though my mate, who I know puts up with alot of my antics, would step infront of me and tackle me before letting me do something I'd regret. But what if I get angry when she isn't around. I'm alittle scared at my flaring anger sometimes but earlier I got kind of excited from it. I don't know what to make of it.

Lets hope I can get back without her getting more burs in my fur and anger me further. 5 more days. I think I can make it.

Current Mood: infuriated

Here's the starting numbers

Taxi 1:50
Greyhound 1:25
Amtrak 2:3
Car 1:75

My bet is on Amtrak. Who will win this stupid fucking race of idiocrity.
My friend is being an ass and might leave me in Disney to fend for myself.

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Finishing a moodset when I come back from sulking around Epcot. This current one isn't expressive enough.

Current Mood: cold

I was writing postcards to the three most influential people in my life and had a flood of memories and feelings hit me. I know that BATC is on it's last legs in the stage that it is now. Once one of the Titanious Trio's goes down I don't know if the other two can hold it up like it has been. It wouldn't be the same. It wouldn't be BATC without them all together. It already feels dark when the secretary left a year or two ago. She was one of the anchors. I don't know what to compels me to want to do anything possible to help it. I probably wouldn't get paid. Only in good faith and my sweet charity. Why do I feel so compelled to save an already falling school. I couldn't save it. Only help stop the fall from happening as quickly. I'd have to be careful to not let it fall on me either. If I played my cards wrong, they'd all look to me to help start it anew. I don't think I could do that. At least not at this time.

What will happen when the most respected woman I know falls? I don't think I could ever go there again. It wouldn't be the same. Acting wouldn't be the same. No random musical theatre classes every other year. I know I was such a pansy about acting when at BATC. Ms. Grigal has a strong personality. When I was younger I saw this as a threat and hid from it. Now that I look back I see that it was yet another training tool. How can you act if you're afraid of yourself and can't prove the teacher wrong? I can remember the mild smug looks she'd give you if you did something right in her mind. It was something so small as a light nod or a smirk that made it all worth while. If it wasn't for Helen Grigal, I wouldn't be as assure of myself as I am now. She helped me be a brave and strong leader even though I tend to get bashful about it when people point it out. I never noticed that a lot of people look up to me as a leader until recently.

Then there's Dr. Anderson, Dr. A, Mr. Gene, or formally known as Dr. Walter Eugene Anderson. He is much of a foundation rock as Ms. Helen is. I really admire his bravery in maintaining the teachers and being a teacher himself! Throughout the day there isn't a moment when he isn't teaching. Be it directly teaching a class to a group of students or teaching one on one to a student about the future and life experiences. If there was one person to tell me to not wait for a second chance and just take the opportunity when it happens, it's Dr. Anderson. He taught me to be brave in the throws of uncertainty and keep to my feet on unsteady times. His constant badgering at how I act and react to scenarios have helped me to this day. He's help me get this common sense head on my shoulders that I've noticed that many on this planet don't have. He's taught me to keep up my endurance and fight for the things I want ebcause if you son't, who will? The only person to fight your battle is yourself.

As for Ms. Betsy, she taught me to go after what I want. She helped me try and discover what I should do in life. Helped mold me into teh great artistic person that I am. I may not be a Beethoven on the piano or a wiz on teh guitar but at least I tried it! She taught me that even just having a kind open heart is everything. Being willing to listen to people can solve the simpliest of problems.

I'm glad I spent almost half my lifetime at that school. It's made me into the great person that I am. I've had people tell me that they respect me for my bravery in the workplace and the ability to be calm when confronted with a problem.Even if the show is falling apart, the show must go on right? Life is a stage and I'm the show. I can't just let others upstage me in my life story. All of you have been the stage-hands in shaping me to be the life-actor that I am. I may not be a crackshot actress on the theatrical stage, but maybe I can on the stage that is my life.

I feel like I just looked at  myself for the first time in the mirror and saw who I really am, how I came into existance and how I was molded into this dynamic person. I never realized the impact of them on who I am. My eyes are opened for the first time.

Current Mood: indescribable

I was having a pretty faboo day and I come home to a FREEEZING house. SO logically I go "WTF WHY IS IT SO COLD IN HERE!" cause I could hear my roommates talking. They heard me. I wandered over to their room and asked why the tub was running cause I wanted to use it. One of my roommates was like "I'm usin it first sorry. Oh, also, I might have the Swine Flu. The cold air might would help keep teh grerms away from you."

UMM LOL the Swine Flu is a virus. Its already dead. How is teh cold air gunna stop it?

Also, I was like WTF WHY ARE YOU HERE THEN!? Go to teh doctor and get TamiFlu!!
And what was her responce?

Oh its too expensive
too expensive
expensive
expensive

...................WTF!! OMG D:< You rather protentially infect dozons on people with the Swine Flu ebcause you were too stingy to go to a fuckin doctor? If I get the oinks I will get really pissed off because she would be the one to give it to me!

They are idiots!!
If I get the oinks................. >:C

Current Mood: aggravated

FINALLY!

My trainset works!
SO AMAZING

Its set up in a circle right now.
I demand more track pieces!! D:

I need a train icon eventually!

Derailed at Frontierland by Mount Saint Laundry. Sockvilances have been sited. We have to hitch the horses and get all the passengers back to Toon Town!! Goofy, get started on re-railing the train!

Also, I need a conductor's hat :[

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LOL this will make no sense if you haven't seen the AWESOME 60$ trainset I got for 15$ before.
Also, references of Magic Kingdom spliced with my floor 83

This is fun! Might have to make random train posts in the future!

Look at this cool Swine Flu map I found! :D

http://ow.ly/47bL

Not a pandemic yet, awww :C
Needs to kill more people to make an interesting book!

So being away for so long from my mate is starting to slightly get to me! Yea! Me! D: Of all people. But I'll survive. Hasn't gotten too bad. If I couldn't talk to her online very day I think I might die ¬¬


I've gotten itchy paws again!! I want to make a fursuit so badly right now! DX My sculpture teacher says I can make a costume as my project! I'm going to have to sell a crap ton of my bogus fur when I get home to make way for some of this crazy 40$ a yard fur I want to get for my wolf @__@ It's gunna be soooo super realistic I want it to scare the crap out of my teacher and go TOLD YOU cause he doesn't see the merit of such a project. Costumes are like moving sculptures so theres my arguement. Also the moving jaw will count to something! Bet he doesn't think I can pull it off! Oh, I'll show him! HUZZAH

But cause of this major project... can't get much at Anthrocon :/ Not like I spent money last time. I bought like less than 100$ worth of stuff. Half of it being copys of Dog Days of Summer. Since I won't have to buy that, I won't feel obligated to buy anything. Probably a plushie at least. I wanted that freakin Snake with Wings >:C thats what I get for not buying it when I saw it! My mate and I might chill in Artist Alley for a day if I get around to making a bunch of silly wolf plushies out of scrap fabric I have. Furrys will buy anything thats like 2$ and looks mildly like a wolf XD

Current Mood: bouncy