My fellow barn staff had a fun little Italian Luau today. It was ok at first. Everyone was eating and watching Finding Nemo but then everyone started chit chatting. I felt so out of place. I tried to be social when we had a pinata. I jumped up and raised my hand and asked if I could be first and no one cared. Two people went in front of me and then broke it so I didn't even get to go. Then I went inside when I was trying to have fun talking and hanging out with them but no one listened to me. I left my cup on the ground so grass got in it. So I exclaimed comically, "Ahh! I have grass in my cup! Hahaha" and I turned, smiling and laughing slightly and half of them didn't even look at me and the ones that were looking kinda gave me a weird look and were quiet. So I drooped my ears and went inside. Then I proceeded to watch tv for like an hour and a half and no one talked to me. Even my bosses dog didn't want to snuggle with me. He kept stepping on me so I shoved him off. When the tv show was over I went to my room. Now I feel so lost and confused. Why did no one want to talk to me or at least show pity and try and include me in a conversation about something dumb or just entertaining to listen to?
I then just looked up stuff about AD/HD people have this problem. Maybe this is stemmed from my small social interaction when in middle school and high school. It's not anything new, I've always felt out of place when talking to anyone.

I went to a doctor a few years ago and he put me on meds. It made it worse or my stomach didn't like the meds. I just can't win can I? :C